last post.

Has been 5 months huh?
Time to shut down this blog.
In F3 I've discovered something that means a lot to me. Should be kept in my heart (and my diary) at the moment. Will be shared to my very very  best friend (but --> , not <----->),the only one,though he's ignoring me now. Private little things should be locked. Not revealing out.

I'll only unlock mon coeur to those I trust and love . Some people think I'm naive or idiotic. But the truth is they just don't understand me. Well , I'm not speaking about you. You know what,that day while I was eating the bowl of noodles. You asked me if I was still jealous.
You: Still jealous?
Me: *eats*......
You: Feel a little uncomfortable?:)
Me: *eats*.....

All I wanna say is....*sigh* why do I always hide my feelings? I just wanted to say : Why can you always read through my mind? ...
dun misunderstand.
I like that. That means you know me better than anyone else does nope?

This summer has been short,miserable and hot.
If things could go back again.....opps...same old habits.

Au revoir,Bonne nuit.


just one last little thing: if one day you come to my place,and discover where i hide my 2 diaries....you can read them. permission allowed. since 99% are talking about you.

Simplicity

She said I didn't have the emo vibes/not qualified to be one coz I didn't celebrate death or sorrows.
But rite now,I wanna break anything made of anything of everything for the incredibly marvelous sound that symbolizes the existential fragility, that marks the collapse of this narcissistic being's universe, that gives me the excitement I need to light up the room for a bit of the dim light when playing Cosmos by tatu.

Well.

I don't wanna go to the Maths tutorial class

I don't wanna be forced to do stuff.

I don't want xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I don't want Valentine's Day to come

I want to eat whatever I want,without my mom nagging me or what

I want to read instead of preparing for the monstrous amount of extra exercise books

I want to study Arts with someone.

was irritated by something ytd.

對我來說，我覺得世界上最恐怖的感覺是有一日，你醒來，發現你最最最最喜歡的人在你手機、Facebook、Email以致所有媒介都無緣無故的消失了，好像那個人根本沒有存在過。不過你記得所有事。又或是，你見過他一面，說過話，但之後的日子他不理會你，你次次檢查郵箱時都沒有"You've got a mail!"。你會不會覺得其實所有所有所有事情只是一個夢？情況就像Bella Swan在New Moon里失去了Edward Cullen一樣，Edward將照片帶走，不留下一個聯絡地址，其實他有沒有存在過呢？

以上的情況，其實就是我每天起床睡覺的感覺。

I feel I am old,but not very wise.
I feel I am old enough to die,but it's not the time.

I feel like we were never friends,

Maybe it was all about a test.

For all the things you have said or done,

Were all lies.

But the fact is,

I don't believe you are fooling me around.

I choose to ignore everything what my buddies told me,

just because I feel like I can count on you.

But the pathetic truth is that,

you never need me.

It's not a fair game,love is always unfair,I know it.

Maybe the feelings of mine aren't the same as what you think,

maybe,

it's not "liking you"

It's more than it.

Singing

Me singing(I can sing):

Eternal Flame

Wishes

We laughed and talked for hours like I'd known you forever

Like a dream or something from a book

True love has found me

One star-brighter than the others

Two hearts-beating for each other

Now I see wishes really come true

You just have to dream

Nothing's as bad as it seems to be

Believe me

Someone's waiting for you to try

There in the sky

One star-brighter than the others

Two hearts-beating for each other

You will see wishes really come true

You can't stop believing wishes do come true

You gotta believe me

Wishes do come true

I like the lyrics.

Close your eyes

Give me your hand

Darling

Do you feel my heart beating?

Do you understand

Do you feel the same?

Am I only dreaming?

Is this burning

An eternal flame?

I blieve it's meant to be darling'

I watch you when you're sleeping

You belong with me

Do you feel the same

This song makes me cry *sneeze*

Say my name

Sunshien through the rain

Of all life so lonely

Then you come and ease the pain

If we can hang out again next time,I will sing Eternal Flame to you.(Music lesson's project)

*Repeat the chorus*

June Lovers

而他，他算什麼，你竟顧念他，他算什麼。

This was the lyrics we sang today in music lesson,a hymn,but the lyrics reminded me of some love songs.

I just come back from the City Hall.I haven't been there for 2 years,the last time I went there,he was still being steady with me.

I just had the instant feeling after watching the show,so I called you.
Is it stupid?I mean,from all the times,the things I have done about you.

閉關自守

我要閉關寫稿。中文科主任說要罰我留低本《星雲組曲》在圖書館是不可原諒的事，不過念在我將本書隨身帶，乃是文人一個。所以罰我在星期五截止的校內徵文比賽中投稿。我一向都不喜歡參加學校的比賽，所以我將一篇在暑假寫的《阿儀的故事》投了上去。

所以我要開工寫新故事，因為我要賺錢買中文書和英文書看。只要找對地方，$150都可以好好洗。我今日去了一個久違的地方，裏面的書平均是20-30元一本（雖然有些是二手，不過我仍然很開心）。

我下次再去的時候要和你去。

得唔得? :(

學校趣事

今日上中文課時，由於昨天晚上畫畫（Picasso's portrait)畫得太夜（為藝術而犧牲），所以眼皮像千斤重地跌了下來。我的腦的構造是非常奇妙的，因為我可以一邊閉目養神，一邊聽老師說話，還可以立即站起來答問題。就在今天中文老師突然叫我答人間有情的問題：試列出一句有語帶雙關的對白。我心想：哈！你以為咁就考到我？你太天真了！於是天真的我答：果然是送來傘是最好的。老師說：好，正確，唐叮叮跳了一句易的講了一句難的。我們現在看看這句的深層意思是什麽。我答：自動送上門的人是最好的。老師啼笑皆非。

話說上星期五，我興致勃勃像個小朋友似的在午飯過後抱著一個紙皮箱到座位上（學校A4紙的盒），本來是給Civic Education做回收箱的不過仲未要用，所以我同Rita說：我地有新書臺用啊！而Rita亦陪我癲地說：Yeah.結果我們將一些小說、圍巾、字典放在上面（盒子放在兩張椅子的中間），像Matilda里Miss Honey的茶几一樣。而今天上完中史堂后，我們再將心愛的紙皮箱“安裝”好，當書臺咁用。

我在學校圖書館內看見第九屆香港文學節的參賽表格（徵文），今年的主題是《深情絮語》，文體是書信體，內容一定要有關情感抒發，例如愛情、友情、親情，以將濃厚的情感用文字表達出來，道出綿綿愛意。哎呀，好骨痹啊。不過比我寫，我一定不會令你讀到起雞皮。總共有6個獎，3月20日截止，得獎者的作品會于香港文學節（28/6-15/7)于中央圖書館展出，有中學生組。受害人，你說，如果我用自己的故事去寫，有沒有機會展出呢？如果可以用筆名就好了。

犯人無時無刻都想著受害人，不知道受害人會不會和犯人重歸于好呢？

今天回到學校時，Rita看見我走過來已經站起來說：你啊，今天連水也不要飲了。我瞟了她一眼。

再將故事說給她和Crystal聽后，兩人都不約而同地叫我今晚打給你再道歉。而Rita更興致勃勃地于數學堂上和我練習打電話的對白。我們衡量了兩個可能性-----你很生氣和你不生氣。

如果可以道歉一早就道啦。我應該在你上樓前扯住你衣服和你說的。可惜自尊心作崇（原來我在你面前還有自尊心）開不了口。你說我站在這裡幾分鐘也不說話，實在是浪費時間。其實我連口都開不了。

到後來我先知道原來我獨自走在皇后大道西時眼淚水涌出來的原因。

原因就是我沒有我要做的三件事。而最後一樣是一定一定一定一定要做的，但亦因為自尊心在扯下扯下所以不了了之。

我昨天晚上和我Mother鬧大交。我于現實和理想的爆炸性衝突下大說：我中意藝術！我用藝術來作自己的職業和興趣是錯的嗎？！

後來，我攤在床上。我想同你講今晚發生了什麽事。原來每次我看了一本書，一套電影，一首歌，有一個想法，與某某某吵架，有煩惱、失落、興奮，第一個想與分享給的是你。

你還是很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很很生氣嗎？

對住你我會輸的

阿飛正傳

在等待夜晚到來前與露臺上看阿飛正傳（高清翡翠台1:15pm)，本來打算打給你叫你一起看的（不過你要去Show Choir,唯有博一博，在意料之內你的手機沒有開）。

“我聽人家說，世界上有一種鳥是沒有腳的，它只可以一直的飛呀飛，飛得累了便在風中睡覺，這種鳥兒一輩子只可以下地一次，那一次就是它死的時候……”

“十六號，四月十六號。一九六零年四月十六號下午三點之前的一分鐘你和我在一起，因為你我會記住這一分鐘。從現在開始我們就是一分鐘的朋友，這是事實，你改變不了，因為已經過去了。”

"我只不過想見下你，見下你個樣。“

原來你個個星期都要去Show Choir....

咁下個星期的花樣年華你都看不到啦。

隨筆小寫一篇

下次要問一問你，對你來說，生命中什麽是最重要？我會答：愛情和藝術。因為前者代表感情，沒有感情世界就會完結，大家像機器人一樣雙目空洞，連自己做一樣事的目的也不知道；後者是我的生活態度，我相信藝術是存在在生活中每一個角落，可能是一個動作、眼神或一個念頭，亦可以是一個字，一個音符，也可以是一滴墨水。懂得欣賞藝術的人（包括你），面對生活的態度也不同，但是在香港這個石屎森林，文化藝術的人好像要掙扎求存才能在社會上立足。我在考慮：究竟我想要一個什麽的生活方式？我要付出什麽代價？萬一我得不到認同、支持，頹廢到極，你（到時已是成功人士）會不會接濟我呢？我們兩個好像同路人般，不過你的待遇和我實在大相徑庭。我有預感，將來人們會奉承的是你，即使我們做好朋友，你可能會比五光十色的花花世界吸引過去。你到底會不會（我覺得不會）比名利場所洗腦然後忘記你喜愛文學和戲劇的價值呢？

我經常在想，十年后的現在這一秒，我在想什麽。可能身邊的人和事已經面目全非。不過我相信我自己如果堅持原則（雖然會仍然寂寞不堪），我依然可以擁有一個舒服、有Artistic and poetic feeling的生活。你呢？

School

Why suddenly become so interested in my blog?I thought nobody reads it so I write whatever I want(like Fxxk you,shxt,and my god dammit classteacher and classmates)But now you told me to write so I don't know what to write orz

1. Electives:

Subject Group A----BAFs(I will definitely NOT GOING TO CHOOSE IT),Biology,Biology+Chemistry,Chemistry,Chinese History,Geography,VISUAL ARTS

Subject Group B----BAFs(AGAIN?!),Chemistry(AGAINNNN???),Chinese Literature(I hate ancient Chinese),Economics(I hate money),History,Physics,Technology and Living(Basically it's another version of cookery)

Subject Group C----Biology(Fuck you),Economics,Geography,ICT(computer),Literature in English(Yeah,you don't have it :D),Music(Want me to exchange it with you?),Physics

In my imginary world,I'm going to study Arts,Eng Lit. and history.

In reality,I'm going to study Arts,Chemistry and Eng Lit.(I'm so scared that my mom will change it into Physics =[ )

I'll discuss this further with you in some other time.

2.Chessy Talk with girls

Normally during breaks,Crystal comes to my sit and occupies my chair then I move to Rita's chair.Rita is kind,and funny.She's a lil fat,got a pair of purple glasses and a whole collection of Stitch stationery( i don't like Stitch,not as cute as those girls say).Well Lemon Tea,if you want to know who else knows about you,then they do.Only them,I promise.

And I was forced to spill the whole story out today from the morning(Rita),and Crystal added some other crazy dialogues and actions of mine.They just created another story out.And I gotta demonstrated the grabbing arm stuff using Crystal as "you" =_____=''

In lunch time,we were having lunch and suddenly Rita laughed and said: You don't have to eat anything la!有情飲水飽,you just have to drink water!!"And Crystal agreed and said: That's right,why do you still drink milktea?Just drink your bottle of water!!XD"

You know I love 1911 Revolution,and Rita always makes fun with it xD Like today,she suddenly asked: Hey have you told him to ask you if you like Sun Yat-sen more or him more?XD Then two of them laguhed out loud and I just spilt my juice out from my mouth in a sudden.

3.Chemistry

It comes to the Formulae and Equation.

What's HCl2(sth like that)?

Rita answered me: Methane

Me:Can I want Chinese?

Rita：米粉

I was writing.

And after I heard that,I tried my best NOT to laugh(mr Mok was watching).

Buildings-collapse-Lover,that's how she called me before.Because I always said: That builiding is tall...will it collapse suddenly?Just like 911?

or

"Hey look!There's an aeroplane(a bird,in fact),it's flying to the IFC!!

Today,we saw an aeroplane "landed" on the building and Rita created some sound effects like : Bomb.........

Is there any news about building collapsed in Central?If yes,send it to me.

So....yeah that's what happened today.You were so cold to me lor!In the phone \_/

我想打中文

你好嗎？

你說你很悶，所以，我，唐叮叮，提議你做以下各項事情打發時間：

1.打電話給我，大家培養一下感情

2.回覆我的手機短訊

3.寫一篇中文作文，然後給我看（因為我也很悶啊啊啊啊啊啊）

4.想想自己想做什麽，要去實行什麽，然後去做

5.發一發白日夢（坐在白雲上等你）

6.閱讀我的Blog中有關食物的文章（其中有一間餐廳-----泰滋味，在上環熟食中心，星期六我會在這裡同Ma mere en elle ami食飯（6點鐘），你千其千其千其，記得記得記得，不要不要不要，上來上來上來。你只要企定定等我。

最後，麥兜Miss Chanchan聲：你知不知道啊*普通話*,你昨天晚上嚇死我了，我真的很難做，我不能直接說有人在此，也不能對你太冷淡（不過你的聲音好像很低落），但是你居然不回覆我。我很失望啊..........

怪怪地

我覺得怪怪地咁，不是個種怪，而是那種怪。

昨天在觀塘做街頭訪問時學了一個道理：要鎖定目標-----好悠閒的大老闆

萬萬不可-------行得很急得打工仔

最後我更截到一個爆炸頭帶眼鏡的黑人哥哥tim.

仲有，用電話作大個數是走投無路的好選擇。

啊

上了Facebook都系覺得怪怪地咁，但是我沒有猶豫啊！都沒有懷疑！

My Little Airport---《只因當時太緊張》：與你出街是我的夢想，人生充滿新方向

雖然系我的文章中打出來很肉麻很骨痺，不過歌詞太貼切。

Byebye~

/

i thought 2012 could be a different year.

at last it is same as 2011.

Food Record---->Lipids

Yesterday
I ate a lot and a lot,full filled my belly.
1.Deep Fried Cattle Fish （A big pack)
2.Egg puffs (I think I was so cute while eating it :D)
3.Steamed Rice with Fried Egg and Minced Beef
4.鵪鶉蛋Siu Mai
5.3 Spicy Chicken Wings

2 Days ago(I didn't go to school,illness)
Expensive Fancy Meal
1.飲茶
2.Hot Pot
3.脆皮豬手From CitySuper!
4.Pink Lemonade(Sparkling) from SOGO
5.Pink Lemonade(Sparkling) Champagne from CitySuper!
6.German Sausage(Spicy)
7.Shouting at him
Viola,je veux manger un poulet.

Lipids,Steroids,Cholesterol

有時候，女仔不需要太著重體重

好似我咁

我已經在一個星期內用嗮兩個月的Junk Food Tickets.即系話，我已經系一個星期內食了兩次McDonald's meals.

我琴日又食了一個Steak Set,Chicken wings+instant noodles,今晚又打邊爐（半個月內第三次）

仲有，我又中意食燒味，而我的人生觀就是：食燒味唔食皮=浪費食物。燒鵝層皮咬落去油香四溢，又脆又肥，肥鵝的肥油滲落口腔和飯到，簡直是人生一大享受。

再講City Super!和位於合和中心附近一間德國餐廳 的脆皮燒豬手，正正正正正！

仲有，去到JUSCO康怡店個熟食柜個到，琳琅滿目的Deep Fried items+Grilled items,對面又有大大盒sushi,再過去d有非常多的Juice+Soft drinks+wine，唔買都望下啦~

SOGO basement個到有間日本拉麵店，有明太子雞翼....

JUSCO個到有間日本面鋪，9x多一個set,有拉麵、飯+餸、Sushi,佢隔離又有間野買燒番薯雪糕....

上環熟食中心有間叫泰滋味的泰國菜餐廳，recommended：凍蝦刺身（要早d落order，因為我是熟客，所以唔怕:D),黃金蛋（皮蛋+蝦膠），冬陰功

點解我突然之間咁為食？

因為對我來說，人有一把口，作用就是

1.煩住Lemon Tea等佢唔會forget my existence

2.食食食

既然我的BMI是正常，有少少babyfat又點je~~~唔通瘦到成副排骨is the point of beauty nowadays?!(I think so but i'm not gonna follow it)

Dreams

I had few dreams these nights,weird dreams.

The reason for being weird was that I only experienced the pictures,part of the motions,just like Montage.And some sentences/words just flew in the air.I could still feel the saddness and hapiness(mostly saddness).

I guess the most unforgettable one was the one I dressed in a white,silk dress,walking slowly in an old street.I entered a pharmacy(Old Chinese one) and glazed at the "Hundred Boxes".I found some grapes on the counter so I ate them.The juice spilled on my white dress,puprle dirts.Suddenly thousands of letters flew out from the boxes and almost swallowed me.I think they're love letters.I quckly escaped from the pharmacy and.........continued walking.I said something to myself but I forgot.Or I don't wanna tell.

I had my hair cut yesterday.

And spent $660 on A checkered shirt at Laura Ashley <3

天才

我，鄭重發誓，

我以後考試都不會再打天才波。

今日算好運啦！我就當玩Gambling,如果贏左，我都可以有87分。

輸左？

我可能不可以和你去街啊.......<---My dream D:

Beyond The Sky

Beyond rocks Hong Kong forever!

Beyond rules!

Beyond is the rock'n roll legend!!

Beyond is one and only best band in Hong Kong!!Others're just Pop-Rubbishy suckers!!!

Yo Man!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=B6yF-vTKYEs&feature=related

Collar

Since you said you wanted to put a collar around a girl,it's your dream.
That's it,I will wear a collar on that day you see me :D

A collar with sharp nails.
Heavy metal style.

Sexy huh?Wanna have a toilet sex in West Pearl you son of bitch?

(i'm crazy now)
(ahhhh!!!!!Khalil didn't get any great awards!!!)
(and ahhh!!!!LHT IS JUST 99% LIKE KHALIL~~~~~)

所以我說方大同和《麵包樹》裡面的林方文好像（因為林方文是填詞人），而女主角程韻愛的是林方文的才華，中文來講是叫做“愛才”。
你知不知道我在說什麼？

class stuff

I'm going to spill naught words: FUCK THAT,YOU OLD MONSTER BITCH,YOU'RE A DISGRACE TO ALL WHO ARE BITCHES IN THE WORLD

What happened yesterday?

It's a school stuff.My old,selfish,sexual unactive class teacher left us in the classroom afterschool.And she kept criticizing our hair(Not me though,mine is always all-back) and our dressing style(Not me again,I got a good student look,which is so vintage feeling)The point is:she scolded Crystal.Anything you could talk about but you just COULD NOT talk about Crystal!Why?Because we are Bun'n Punch!

Uh no.

Because her hair is born to be that!

I said this not because we got a weird relationship or we had sex or what.Nothing matters with this alright?(LemonT: HUH????)

Now,she got us angry,an abrupt release of stored strain of the mantle,of the convective currents inside mantle,Volcanic Eruption.

Crazy plans=Jail=I will stop her

But it doesn't mean : She,the monster will be fine.

Maybe AA Super Glue will work this time,for a SMALL punishment.

Or a broken chair?(I've tried it)

(Countdown:3 weeks and 2 Days)

Quoting,一篇Cantonese

天與地
"Rock'n Roll Never Die"
"The city is dying,you know?"
"Ohh~~~我有我心底故事~~~"---<不在猶豫> Beyond
"如果，命運能選擇...."
"和諧，不是一百個人說同一樣說話。和諧，是一百個人說不同的說話，但是互相尊重。"


自己
“我叫你講野啊！你答我啊！”
"點解你同你的PC Friends尤其是女仔可以傾得咁合拍，同我就唔得？！"
“你知GA!你一定知GA!我知你知GA!"
"我憎死你”


想像世界：刮你一巴


目前沉迷：
天與地中3位主角和女主角的關係和夾Band和不死的Rock'n Roll精神

目前最大願望：
一樣，估下。